:: heretics and killers. ::

:: Wednesday, November 25, 2009 ::

if i were an author..

i'd probably be a well known expert on the subject of awesomeness, and probably write this book:



the content of the book would definitely be filled with tips on how to talk like me, act, breathe, walk like me... basically how to be like me. but not me.


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:: antimarx 4:38 AM [+] ::
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brb

eh hi.

will blog in a few days. heh.


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:: antimarx 3:05 AM [+] ::
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kickin' it back

311 is one of the earliest bands that i hooked my ears up to. they really have an extensive discography and i used to buy their CDs without even blinking an eyelid cuz i know one of these days, i could just pick out any one of their songs and truly relate myself to it.

Waiting - 311

No matter what I do
I'll always wait for you
So I guess that's, that's what I got to do

It seems I'm spending so much time waiting
And when you can't make up your mind
I'm waiting for you
If that's what it requires
Then waiting's what I'll do
So hurry yourself up
I'm waiting

Just hang up that phone
You already know on your own
What you need to do
And what you got to do
It feels like I'm losing my mind
You know that I'll deal just fine

I know you're thinking
That loves a gamble
And you're not sure that you gonna win, now babe
Take your money and double your bet
And see what happens and watch out
I'm taking my love down to your pawnshop
Tell me baby what should I get
A wedding ring and a boom box
Boom box boom box boom box ooowww

And what else can I say
It will do no good anyway
As long as you know that I'll keep waiting

For you I'd wait forever
Because I know that one day we'll be together
Maybe it's because you know I'll wait
You know I'll wait
I'm still waiting



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:: antimarx 1:58 AM [+] ::
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moving along

the power of words is clearly unquestionable. more often than not, people have politicised otherwise harmless terms to shape the opinions of others as a medium of influence.

the term 'vegetarian', for instance, is one of those words where many would believe should have its definition move along to commit to its contemporary nature - as demonstrated in the article: click HERE.

however, in that respect, i think the word vegetarian should no longer be used to describe people who go by fish as their only source of meat. as mentioned in the article, the term 'pescetarian' could instead of popularised - despite its tongue twisting nature.

keeping the term as clean and pure as what its root words denote detaches it from politicization and gives the general public a greater trust towards the nature of people who use it to advocate their ideals.

"Vegetarianism used to be simple - its protagonists foreswore the flesh of any dead animal. Today there are "veggies" who eat fish, and people who eat no meat but don't call themselves vegetarians. What happened?"

yeah man. what happened sial?

nonetheless, we'd see more of these time and time again. its unpreventable, thus i suppose the best way is to sift through terms and judge not on face value alone.

(p.s. i, for one, am a lover of meat. all meat except pork. and amphibians. a meatist indeed..)


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:: antimarx 12:56 AM [+] ::
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shriek!!!

five more days and we will be reunited once again~!!!

hanzy panzy, botak jones, bud the dub & of course antimarx.

run, zombies, run. for the reckoning beckons.


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:: antimarx 10:33 PM [+] ::
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im not a puppet.

my late night discussions with Pang often strike a chord within me. talks of prospects, passion, prejudice and all the insecurities that we collectively feel though not necessarily realise.

audio visual arts and the like of it including politics. and he presented me with this quote from our great leader:

"I am often accused of interfering in the private lives of citizens. Yes, if I did not, had I not done that, we wouldn’t be here today. And I say without the slightest remorse, that we wouldn’t be here, we would not have made economic progress, if we had not intervened on very personal matters – who your neighbour is, how you live, the noise you make, how you spit, or what language you use. We decide what is right. Never mind what the people think."

- LKY, 1980s.

followed by some good bashing:

pang says:
why do u think in unis we have engineering, accounting, business
pang says:
but we dont have archaeology
or whatever astronomy
or even music
because our fucking economy doesnt need those
we need engineers
accountants
and businessmen
pang says:
u dun even know that
sad shit
talib says:
well... i know
pang says:
and u fall into that trp
pang says:
become what fucking accountant
talib says:
yep
pang says:
when you are supposed to write songs
fuckshit

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fella really makes a lot of sense. but you see, ive grown too accustomised with the way i brought myself up. and by that, looking at the quote i think ive grown too comfortable with the way i think, as well as with the way people around me treat me. and i take it all in. i do what i feel is logical and pragmatic. i try understand why people do things. i try understand why they do things to me. nothing will change despite knowing how i, or we, have been manipulated.

i try understand and put my emotions aside. thats why i chose the path that im still on right now.

but at the very least i still know who i am and what i am.

im not a shadow. im not just a silhouette. i breathe, think, feel. im alive. im in your life.


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:: antimarx 3:29 AM [+] ::
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LIST

ok so here's a list of material things that i want but dont need at all:

1) guitar maintenance; rewiring + restringing + setup (ok this is a need).
2) a new distortion pedal that cuts through
3) at least $400 for clothes (tops and pants)
4) shoes
5) Modern Warfare 2. its a game. peer pressure + im crumbling HAHA


thats about it for now. gotta refer to this list time and time again to know that i have to work towards achieving them!


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:: antimarx 5:44 PM [+] ::
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